My Calling, Living Your Truth Is Not Always Easy

On Friday the 13th as darkness shrouded the earth, a bright super moon shed light and open wide the doorway of the magical T-Square.
It is however, just that…a TAO Cross and remember that word…’square’.
It can put people in tough situations, make or break them.
I couldn’t bring myself to even write about it, I sat down and started and then…once again my heavy heart brought me to my knees.  These are not easy times…not by any stretch of the imagination, unless you are either living under a rock, or so removed from the vicissitudes of life, the very real struggles so many face now, that you really don’t get what is happening.
As often as I have written about these times we now find ourselves in, starting well over a decade ago, prognosticating about these times, I still find myself ‘feeling it all’.  I don’t have the ability to not care about people and just be selfish enough to only focus on my own world.  It is also in part, how the universe cracks open and divulges her secrets.  It is how everything I have ever done in my adult life is born.
Today, it is with heavy heart, that I am forcing myself to release some of this and share my own truth, yet again.  I don’t want to…I would rather share great news, be able to lie and tell people what they want to hear, it would make my life so much easier.
But if I didn’t care, I wouldn’t have cashed in my entire retirement plan to help co-found the first, certified school for alternative healing…then called, Cleveland Polarity, so convinced was I of the amazing work that would heal people naturally.
The thing about being able to ‘see’…or ‘read’ the stars, etc., is you can’t do this for yourself.  You can do this for others, but not yourself.  (Yes, a little, like knowing the stock market was going to crash in October of 2008, in the spring of that year and negotiating out of the last two years of a 5 year lease, to leave in September of that year.)
But could I foresee the landlord of the second center I opened, hitting my then business partner in the face, in front of 3 other customers and myself? After investing in major renovations in that space?  Nope.  Nor the ensuing 11 day trial with the landlord (who was also an attorney for decades in the city) and all the underhanded tactics he would employ to try and win his case?  Did I foresee being called a witch, all day every day for those 11 days?  Because he used pictures of my astrology, the aromatherapy blending bar and reiki symbols as his evidence that I am a witch?  (This is a true story)
I didn’t foresee going into shock, as they allowed this and even called me a bitch, yes….over and over.
So, no…I didn’t know I would go into shock and another ‘healer’ who was there…would ask me, while I was in shock and fighting for breath: “What do you think your lesson is in this?”…I am sure she didn’t realize how cruel this was…and how opposite of healing that was.
Everyone advised me not to take him to court.  My mother: ‘Gloria, don’t risk your business and everything you have worked so hard for.’…another friend: ‘You can’t beat the boys at their own game in his court’…and on and on.
But all I could hear, was ‘HER’ voice…”Gloria, I need you to do this for me, for my girls”….and so…of course, I had to take him to court and prosecute him.
For me, it was an opportunity to truly do something that might have meaning, and difficult situations are exactly when you can make a difference.
We won that case.  He was found guilty, even with all his shenanigans, and there were many.  He was eventually disbarred.  No, not just because of this case, it was just the last straw for someone who had abused his power for too long.  I had several women come up to me during the trial and thank me, telling me that they rented from him for example (single mothers) and he would be abusive and sexually intimidating and threatening when they were alone in their apartments and he came to collect the rent.
Or the woman who worked for him for a time, and repeated the same issues.
Or his 3 ex-wives who all filed domestic abuse charges and he got away with all of it…never being found guilty.
So, I took solace that I was doing the right thing, that SHE knew my copious note-taking habits…and used me to do HER work.
I didn’t have it in me to fight to be compensated via civil suit.  I was already struggling under the weight of it all, and the people who abandoned me along the way…because I lost my constant sunny disposition.  My positive attitude that knew no bounds.  I couldn’t believe that the very people, I risked everything for, would betray me, replace me (I would have had to sue in that case too, and again, just didn’t have the fight left in me and wanted to move forward.) in my position with the school that abandoned me too.
Or all the people, that never knew a single thing about Aromatherapy, until I opened the door for them, spent the money and time to learn about it and share that with others, to watch them buy into ‘the pyramid scheme’ companies I could inform them about and how not one real Aromatherapist had a single lick of respect for those same companies.
So my support system, was demolished.  (save for the loyal friends/earth angels) Though we borrowed more money to open up the 3rd and final center (which I allowed my then business partner to talk me into, since I didn’t think I had the right to go against what might be very necessary in this world, the truth about these things and the charlatan’s who had invaded the world of healing) eventually the bill collectors calls became too difficult…the money was gone and so was my optimism along with that business partner.  But it was my money I invested…so I had a lot more at stake. 
My first day sitting in my yard (which I never really got to experience, because we were always working, it comes with the territory) the sun slaked down my being and with it came the Angel Gabriel once more.  “Gloria, you made the right decision, you are done with that part of your earthly task, and we have something else for you to do now.”
I began to write, the magic of essential oils keeping my mind, body and heart alive and well through it all.  Prayer and meditation a welcome retreat.
Then came the ‘visions’ and ‘feelings’ of the coming storms, I felt the earthquakes in Chile and Haiti and astrologically determined when they would happen…yes I accurately predicted them.  I felt the deaths rising in the Middle East, the famines…so when I went to go to sleep one night and my body would not stop spinning inside, making me nauseas, I was fully alert when I heard Her tell me, ‘the core of the earth is spinning faster and this is causing the buckling of the plates’.  The next day, I ran the charts and accurately predicted the Fukushima earthquake.
That was it for me, I couldn’t take it anymore and asked, prayed to be released from all of it…I don’t want to know anymore I proclaimed, loudly.
It all but broke me.
In every way.
I lost my passion, any desire to create something new, didn’t want to read anymore for people because I didn’t want to see their own terrible road ahead and what they had to go through.  I couldn’t put my hands on people most times to do healing sessions, not wanting to share the angst I felt.  I just started to shut down.
I started to lament asking to come back after my near death experience (or actual death…because I swam inside of Gd, and all that love and that light.  I can assure you all, Gd is very real) I just felt guiltier, for not being able to be stronger, take better care of finances instead of just saying, it is necessary so I just have to do it and the answers will come.  I felt a RESPONSIBILITY. 
I managed to make the blends when my spirits had lifted, to continue to help and provide genuine spirit-guided assistance that I knew helped people.  It was one more consolation in a world growing darker and darker for me.
I almost lost my home.  I had to fight to keep it, when the mortgage company falsely appropriated my payments and put some into a ‘holding account’…not applying it to the mortgage.  My home is worth twice what I owe…so getting their hands on this was a nice bargain for them, and I learned along the way that many just give up under the same or worse tactics.  I am not even going into the abuse I suffered with charlatans claiming they could help me, if I just paid them…$$$.  Threats to take my home and that I would be put out into the street the next day if they wanted.  All while people were calling me for help…please help me, I have no money but I am sick…etc.
It is my good fortune to have wonderful loyal friends who did remain with me, who did step in to help me (if I asked, which is a major learning curve for me, an attack on my dignity and ability to provide for myself, translated as failure in my own heart.) 
I wrote…I wrote so many secrets learned along the way…so many hard-earned truths even to have those usurped after I shared some of them in classes and writings/blogs as if they were their own discovery…’healers’ lying to people and gaining followers, because they were all to ready to lie and tell people what they wanted to hear, rather than the truth, and simply line their own pockets, without principle.
Even now, I become leery of sharing the contents of my book…why share pearls with people who have not done the hard work to discover Gd?  To open the mystery?
Eventually, I was so broken I went to work for a local hardware store.  I had to work and didn’t want to take a job that required major commitment, energy invested in any sort of managing anything or anyone.  I had next to zero energy.
The problem was, I don’t know how to not work hard.  If something has to be done, I cannot stop myself from feeling responsible when someone is paying me to WORK.  The cement floor and heavy lifting brought new problems though, physically.  I was using WiseWoman and Pain Master like water, just trying to keep the pain down.  (I almost died for a reason, that left major scars and also what led me down the path of alternative health, I HAD TO FIND OTHER WAYS TO HELP THE PAIN AND JUST LIVE A NORMAL LIFE.)
I thought I could manage working at the hardware store (make extra money) and still manage to fuel ArcAncient.  I was wrong.  It was darn near killing me physically and I would have no strength or energy left to do what I actually loved.  So, eventually I came to the conclusion that I was becoming poorer, rather than catching up and I don’t have health care, so any little accident would do me in.  My knees were screaming as were my feet by the time I got home.
People don’t want an unhappy healer.  We have been programmed, yes that’s right, programmed to want the ‘cheerful happy person’ promising riches…people had been seduced by prosperity gospels, given by charlatans, when there is NOTHING SPIRITUAL ABOUT WEALTH OR MONEY OR THINGS YOU BUY.  That is not saying that if you are wealthy you are not spiritually evolving, just that teaching any sort of prosperity connected to spiritual consciousness is false teachings, and why you won’t find a single scripture or teaching from previous sages, Confucius (found enlightenment under the tree, contemplating the suffering of others that he was not aware of, living in his palace as royalty), Jesus taught us about temptation in the desert.  To deny that temptation for that which turns to dust.  And on and on.
Then there is the ‘Stepford Wives’ version of spirituality being taught, as I have nicknamed it, where we must focus only on the positive or we will make the problem bigger.  Anyone who knows me, also knows how much this ignorant teaching bothers me.  Sounds like the teaching of the 50’s on how to be on your best behaviour at all times, or you won’t be ‘chosen’ as a wife, etc.
Of course it is nicer to hang around someone positive and upbeat, I had that nailed naively for a good portion of my life…and then reality set in.
I certainly did not project into my life, much of the trials and tribulations I have been through, the universe chose me to deal with as it forged reality and integrity into my soul, always giving me the option to look away and selfishly take care of only myself.  Reality can be a harsh teacher.
Even back in the 80’s when we all rejoiced with each other at the Harmonic Convergence, all I could naively think was we were creating a new, kinder world for our soul’s evolution, that we had arrived.  Well…we had arrived, but a new world comes through the destruction and chaos of the old world.  It is the very meaning of the word Arc/k…’a vessel bearing seeds to give birth to a new world/paradigm out of the chaos of the old, thus Noah’s Ark, Joan of Arc, the Ark of the Covenant, The arch of the rainbow, etc.’
I surely didn’t foresee that there would be charlatans’ who would use spiritual goo, to entice people and become wealthy, spreading lies, but that go down as easy as heroin to some addict who first used that too.  It feels good.
We are seduced in every way, at every stop, in so much Hollywood fodder, etc., that it is nearly impossible not to get caught in the net.  Who doesn’t like nice things? 
Now we are living in the underbelly of those lies.  All coming onto the world stage to show us all who and what we have become.  And it will get worse, before it gets better.  I am grimly reminded of my joy, when I heard: ‘you are living in the time of ‘revealations’ and ran home after the visions and signs were etched into my awareness, with the mysteries unfolding and new found insights had me practically giddy!  I looked up the word, ‘apocalypse’ to discover the true meaning, was: ‘The lifting or thinning of the veil’.  Ahhh!  To reveal the mysteries, no wonder I was connecting so many things!   This is just great!
I took pictures of the ‘signs’ literally carved into the railing.
That was back around 2008 or 9.
The excitement turned into a darker glass to look through, as so many events unfolded and I watched well-meaning searcher’s turn to the very charlatans that had taken advantage of me and lie to people. 
So, it took quite a bit, before I quit the hardware job and went back with passion to my soul’s work.  I was doing a fair with many other vendors when a woman came up to the booth and then took a step back.
I happened to be with Robin, she asked the woman why she seemed to have an issue and the woman responded that we were “alternative health practitioners and her daughter in law was on death’s door, because of the healer that told her ‘she was healed and didn’t need to go to the doctor anymore’”…both of our jaws were on the floor.  Breaking the CARDINAL RULE.
Robin pried further and asked who this healer was.  Sure enough, it was one of the women who we both knew and both had experienced her lies.  We continued to talk with and console the woman and then she bought a cream to comfort her daughter n law (Harmony).  She called me the next week, to tell me her daughter loved the cream, was feeling better had made a turn for the better and was back with her doctor.
It reminded me of my purpose.  The truth is important.  Integrity is important.
Robin and I both saw in that instant, how necessary it is for those who walk the harder road, to be out there, visible and sharing the truth, the real tools that work with integrity.
It started to bring me back to life, my purpose born again, my path opened up before me.
I just needed to catch up on bills that grew instead of shrinking and all would be well.  Once I did that, the book that was nearly completed, could find its way into the world.  I could remind people of our spiritual inheritance, far more important than anything that turns to dust in this world.
So, when I came down with pneumonia again, I decided that I was worthy and had a purpose and needed to find an even better way to deal with the bouts that come every other year or so, all starting from the time I died and laid in a hospital bed for almost a month and caught that first terrible bout of pneumonia that almost took me out too.
I was reminded of the elderly couple that I started working on in 2002, who came to me so sick, shuffling their feet into the healing room and him, coughing and coughing…on yet another bout of anti-biotics that was not clearing up his lungs.  I did hot compresses on him, every time he came in and they purchased the Breathing Easy and other blends and creams to help themselves with.
I could get him better, but unless I stayed with them and kept repeating that process for him, I could only make it better for a while.  We did manage to keep them alive for another decade and a half.  That is a miracle in and of itself.  I love you Jean and Tom.  RIP  T
That grim reminder, made me look into additional healing tools again.  I found the camphor crystals, but they were so expensive, it took a while to make the investment.  Then the salt and clay investigation began again (I used to make bath kits with some nice salt blends in them, but stopped along the way because of all the hurdles I had to get through.)
So, returning to this method, going beyond Epsom salts and the right essential oil blend, opened my eyes once more.  Adding the soaks and the new salt blends did indeed assist my healing at a far more rapid pace.  It blew me away.  Adding the organic tea, local honey, lemon oil in the tea all came together in the new, ‘Colds and Flu Kit’. 
Then, just before the distributor party, I fell about 10 feet down off a ladder.  (Yes, I should not have been up that ladder, especially at my age, but when you get used to having to do things yourself and you have little funds, you do what you got to do!)  I thought I might have broken my hip.  I could not move my right leg, without using my hands and arms to lift it.  My head was pounding and bleeding.  My arm was banging and bleeding too.  I had really done it this time.
So, I had the cold and flu salts sitting on the counter, I added some additional oils and hobbled into the bathroom.  Wow, the instant relief was beyond comforting, because I have no health care…and it scared the hell out of me if I am honest.  I cried into that tub…both because it felt so good, relieving my fear of how bad it might have been, I realized my piriformis muscle was the true culprit of my pain, and perhaps bruised hip bone and maybe a couple cracked ribs.  All of which could heal without surgery.
I got out after a long soak, in which I also was praying and meditating.  I used about a whole roll on of pain master on my leg and upper thigh, hip and some on my arm, shoulder and foot, which I had also managed to twist.  I applied ArcAncient’s Bone Lover Cream © on my entire body.  I could walk and use my leg, but I still had to lift it with my hands to move it up, or for stairs, etc.
I kept doing this soaking process and applying the Pain Master and WiseWoman throughout the day, by the third day I was able to cut the grass. 
Now we have, the Colds and Flu Kit, the Detox Kit, the Complete Detox Kit (adding the clays and blends, skin tonics and facial oils.)
In all my years of doing this, even the early years 1994 of the Breathing Easy miracles for myself and others, or the Bone Lover roll on and cream that people did not want to be without, or the Sleep Angel, WiseWoman, etc., and the people who won’t be without those either.  Nothing compares to the responses and thank-yous I am getting from people who used them…my own experiences in what they do, beyond healing, beyond taking away pain, beyond healing pneumonia…is the shift I feel as the weight is lifted.  As the darkness of the world falls off and I feel as if I can once again…do the work I was called so long ago to do.
So many stories now, of how a ‘shift’ has taken place, ever since someone used the salt soaks and kits.
How it clears the entire house of negative energy.
I am reminded of all that we face in this shifting world now, how the onslaught is daily.  How frightened people, will pour their dark energy upon you, in jealousy, fear, or worse.
Of a world we are witnessing the dramatic changes in, especially anyone born before at least 1980, when everything started to change as I look back.
Of storms that completely wipe out islands and coasts, taking lives and livelihoods with them.  Of ‘the terrible winds’ that come out of nowhere now and are getting worse.
Of the confusion being spread, news sources being questioned to the point that it is becoming more and more difficult to know what is true or fake.
The one thing that we absolutely MUST HAVE, is integrity.  The more you know the truth inside your own heart, not from a book, or some ‘leader’…but deep inside your own being, your witness self, the clearer things will be, and that does not make it easy, but it helps to lead the way and have that anchor.
When I see anyone suffering, it is all I can do not to beg them to let me help them, because I know I can help that cold you can’t get rid of, or the swelling in your legs, or the tingling in your arms and hands, and on and on.
We have to keep detoxing.  It is not an option.  Even just soaking the feet, will help draw out the toxins and absorb over 84 different minerals, another thing most people are deficient in, like magnesium, calcium, etc.  This is just counting one…of the four different salts in the blend, or the essential oil blend that we add to this perfection.
That process is called: Asorption.
This is a power we do have now.  This is the control we do have.
I cannot stress the importance of this enough, and like so much of what I do, I went through the hard times, the pain and suffering, including my own death and return, to share this with you so that you in turn can share this with others.  It is why we have a distributor plan at all.  So more people can experience the amazing gifts of genuine healing tools. 
I am also a Libra and the planetary aspects are hitting my particular chart, very hard.  All three of my printers broke.  My main computer has crashed and I had to deal with trying to transfer files to my laptop, which is straining from age herself.  I have been able to fix my main printer in the past, taking it apart and reassembling it, several times now.  This time…well…I may have put the nail in the coffin in my attempt to fix.
My car is over 10 years old now, and sometimes takes me a few minutes to manage to get the key to turn…the mechanic says it is the key tumbler or something like that.
So, giving the discounts to help share and make up for the discount (up to 40 or 50% sometimes) also makes me have to sell a lot more, to even try to make a profit.   All on my own now, for over a decade.  My business partner left as I stated previously, almost 15 years ago.  So yes, alone.
I managed to get one of my older printers to work, (it won’t work with the main computer that crashed, something about the age of each, etc., more technical stuff that I am not good at.)  But at least I can make black and white prints again of sales.
I would never have thought, with my naïve heart and mind, that people who said they were on a spiritual path of conscious evolution, would steal from me.  I don’t get that, at all, because it is so contradictory to spiritual evolution and destroys the integrity necessary for that to take place.  My heart wants to help people so much that thought does not enter into my brain.  Of course, I have always had a healthy dose of creativity and ability to turn dreams into reality that I don’t know what it would be like, to feel different.  To not come up with my own dream?  My own aromatherapy blends?  My own sources and tools?
I am guided to do these things.
But we live in this world, and people do take from those they feel are just gullible, or perhaps they feel they are more worthy, or that some of us don’t realize what we have so they deserve it anyway, I don’t know.
I know it’s wrong.
I can’t say I have not learned many lessons that are much deeper into the mysteries because of these trials, discernment being on top of that list.
So, to all the people asking me, where is my book? 
I am trying to stay alive.  While I cradled so many, wiped their tears over the years and gave them a new direction in life…the cold hard truth is we are still on this planet.  It is not easy, no matter how many gifts you might have, because the world will offer plenty of challenges to develop you even more, to open you up and pour grace upon the planet.   People will take advantage of you, and not give it a second thought.
   
​     Hard way to learn this fable: The Wolf and the LambAs a wolf was lapping at the head of a running brook, he spied a stray lamb paddling, at some distance, down the stream. Having made up his mind to seize her, he thought to himself how he might justify his violence.
"Villain!" said he, running up to her; "how dare you muddle the water that I am drinking!"
"Indeed," said the lamb humbly, "I do not see how I can disturb the water, since it runs from you to me, not from me to you."
"Be that as it may," replied the wolf, "it was but a year ago that you called me many ill names."
"Oh, sir!" said the lamb, trembling, "a year ago I was not born."
"Well," replied the wolf, "if it was not you, it was your father, and that is all the same. But it is no use trying to argue me out of my supper." And without another word he fell upon the poor helpless lamb and tore her to pieces.
I am not a poker player, everything I think comes right out on my very expressive face.  I did manage to keep a smile and a positive attitude through much of this, and even now…but I am lying if I tell you it is easy or that I am not tired and still trying to rebuild my destroyed finances.  It is like trying to climb a muddy hill, speaking of the Bahamas.  Or Puerto Rico, or Houston, or New Orleans…and on and on.
Because we are in a major shift on this planet.  MAJOR
The world as we once knew it, is quickly disappearing and a new one is on the horizon…but we have to get through this window of time.
All people being aspected in some cases in very exact and hard ways astrologically, are being activated for just this time.
But they are crosses.  Being on that cross is what opened my eyes to see the deeper mystery of the three crosses on Golgotha, Jesus falling 3 X’s with His cross, etc., it is a LEGEND TO INFORM US OF THESE ASTROLOGICAL TIMES AND EXPERIENCES.  I see it first hand with clients, whose charts I am deciphering (yes I went back to reading to assist people again, as I have been asked to ‘come back to serve’ now).
This winter and the end of this year into January, is going to be as tricky as it gets down here.  We will need to detox and keep using genuine tools for healing with authentic people and everything we can to assist each other and ourselves during the coming challenges.  We will need to have our integrity intact or be lost in the oncoming deluges that are coming.
…They are coming….I am only the messenger.
Thank you all for helping me to continue to do the work I came back to earth to finish.   If you can help lighten my burden, it will make a great difference for me…and I thank you for your continued support.

My heartfelt thanks to all of you have remained loyal and our new friends that the universe has brought here.  Thank you for being kind to me, we all need kindness. 
I will surely be able to finish the book and continue to make great products, with integrity the more I find a way through these financial lessons.  People who are loyal to ArcAncient, always say: “these oils are so much different/better than the others I have tried.”…yes, they are…I literally crossed over and came back, in large part…to do this so you would have access to the real deal.
You cannot buy or imitate that kind of authentic magic.
Want some more good news?  At the distributor meeting/clay/salt experience, I told people that by the end of next year, the particle (Saturn) and the wave (Jupiter) would come together and this would happen, via rising above the ‘either/or’ scenario…and moving into the particle wave field, which is the higher option and becomes the dimensional shift…it is on the horizon and look at this article I found!  
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Be well my friends…A CHANGE IS HAPPENING.
Gloria
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